Growing the tumor took great concentration; delighted I was when I realized I was successful! There it was, starting, a small chunk of “matter,” here in the dark with me! Now I just had to make it larger….big enough to hide behind…..concentrating…..concentrating……….
I heard a deep, friendly voice chuckle and say:
“You’re not supposed to practice those skills now! You’re supposed to wait till you get there.” “I’m not going.” “What do you mean you’re not going; of course you are! You agreed! Everything is all set up! Others have been staging for years on that side for crying out loud! You can’t bail out now. It’s a whole movement; you’re a part of it! They need you!” “I’m not ready; this is too much! I’m a freak! I’ve been thinking about it; about her! Can you imagine what life will be like?!” “Of course I can! She’s necessary; she’ll teach you what you need to know. She’s the best one for the job; we’ve been through this….Come on, leave that tumor alone. That’s not going to solve anything and you’re going to mess your face up.” “No…..listen! I heard them talking! If they can’t hear my heartbeat they’ll think I’m dead!” “So?” “Well, they’ll leave me alone! I can go back, study up some more; maybe we can find a better Mother…..I’m not ready….” “There’s no time to go back, and your plan won’t work! You’re just making it harder for yourself!” “Why not? Why won”t it work?” “Because they’ll just come in there and get you!.” “Na, they don’t know how to do that……do they?” “You’ve just forgotten, it’s part of what happens; I’m pretty sure that’s the effects of gravity we talked about. Yes, they are quite advanced medically now. They’ll cut her open, take you and the tumor out.” “Will she die?!” I’m trying not feel glee; it’s not proper, but it would make me more willing to attempt this mission. “No, that’s not the plan….You NEED her! For goodness sake, don’t kill yourself with that thing! We are not starting this over yet again; we’ve tried already several times, as you know!………….It’ll be ok! There are others out there, waiting; others you will find along the way. They’ll help. They’ll be there for you. We’re all here for you. When you need us, just pray. You can do this! You must do this!” “Oh, leave me alone; let me get some rest. My claustrophobia is kicking in, I need to concentrate on calming myself. I do not like this hot dark place, and there’s hardly enough room in here for me, much less that thing.” “Just give it up. It isn’t going to help! I’ll check in with you later. Try to focus on the mission. Remember, we’re still not sure how it will unfold. This whole Duality thing is a nightmare!”
The voice fades away, muttering to itself something like “who knew, who knew………”
I vaguely recall something about how things started out good, and then they went wrong. That’s what this is all about; that’s what I’m about. That’s my mission; I’m to help get things back to before they went wrong. Sigh, what a mess. First, we create time, “so we can experience life” and all the lovely things we had created; so we can “experiment.” Except that the experiments were about creating Heaven on Earth. Somewhere along the line, someone forgot to take into account the effect gravity would have on our energies. Didn’t quite think things through all the way…..it’ll happen…..Suddenly, somehow, we’re not really sure, someone thought up duality.
Everything is one; everything was one; is one; and will forever be one. We are all connected. There is no such thing as time; there is only Now. Nothing is solid; everything is moving. We are all one, made up of the same stuff. Under the strongest microscope, everything looks the same. Looks the same = is the same. When we started The Grand Experiment by thinking up time and space we were one and we knew it; we knew all these things and we acted that way. We acted that way………
Well, that’s enough for today……
Thank you, Dear Reader,
With Great Love,
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P.S. I apologize for the lack of photos or graphics; I will add graphics as time allows; for the time being the important thing is to get it written.
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